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September 11th, 2008 9:41pm] |
Seven years ago today my best friend, Christopher Sean Caton, died. He did not deserve to die. He had never done anything bad to anyone, except to the band the Gin Blossoms that he hated with a passion. He was the third person to hold me when I was born. The first one that truly made me smile. He was the reason for every breath I still take and every time I want to die. He knows I love him. I know there has to be a God because I know that Sean could never have truly gone. He's in my heart. He's in heaven. He's looking down at me right now, punching me and singing me to sleep. He wants me to stop crying. He wants me to live the rest of my life. I love you Seany. Forever and always.
We said we'd walk together baby come what may
That come the twilight should we lose our way
If as we're walkin a hand should slip free
I'll wait for you
And should I fall behind
Wait for me
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[Tuesday
January 9th, 2007 2:15pm] |
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December 29th, 2006 8:50pm] |
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Chris and I broke up [again] today and I think it's the last time.
I would have been two years next Sunday.
I gave him an ultimatum where he had to give me a decision if he wanted to be with me by 8:30 or it would just be understood that we would go our seperate ways. He didn't say anything for the last six minutes.
The last time I talked to him on the phone, he didn't even tell me he loved me. Strike that, he just called me to yell at me 'because [he] stills cares'.
I just want to die. I need his love in my life and I don't know what I can do without him. I can never picture me being happy knowing that he isn't in my life anymore.
My first boyfriend way back in 6th grade told me that I would never be able to keep a guy around because they would finally realize how ugly I am. As i sit at my computer, sobbing with a bottle of grey goose in hand, I now see what he meant.
Eu te amo mais então que você conhecerá. Você faz minha vida worth viver, você faz todos meus dias maus bons. Chris, se eu poderia ter qualquer coisa, seria você que prende me para o descanso de minha vida. Adeus muffin.
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[Wednesday
May 18th, 2005 9:31am] |
000hsnap is LOCKED.
add if you must.
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